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Don't push back, I said
Remember who you were
And what you did
I was agonising in pain
Felt I decided for the choice you made
I forgot that I begged
Cried for what could never be mine
Now, now it's about deciding what is love
Should I fight harder
Or am I pushing it back further?
Somewhere between those unsaid words
Between those forgiveness and pleads
I questioned was it love this time?

I felt hollow, 
But decided to get back to what really could be mine.
That was me for me.

But I want you to know,
I hope you're happier than you were with me
And I think about you in the way the rain greets

I hate metaphors now- their exactness and inadequacy
They make me doubt everything I trusted
With moist eyes, I hardly felt gentle
In a rattling shower, 
I made a drowning downpour
I grew, between those self-questioning
But, I fear the choices now.

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